Pada saat ini, aku stress...Sangat stress..Berhadapan dengan self-crisis tahap bahaya....Aku kelihatan tenang tapi aku senang goyang...Aku selalu berfikir yang aku mampu handle segalanya...Ego ku mengatasi segala2nya...Tapi, hari demi hari aku semakin hilang arah...Aku mula cepat give up esp bila semua aku buat semua xmenjadi...Aku senang stress, cepat marah & yang pasti dah selalu menangis balik...Im cracking...When I think about it my tears started to flow even at dis entry...

Sampaikan I asked her, 'Can I back to 'it???I really need to ease myself'...
She answered, 'Hell'...Nape nak???Ko kan xbole & doing FYP currently...'It' 'll effect ur performance'...
Me, 'Yeah, I knoe...But I really dont knoe how to handle my own life...I need sumthing tat can ease it...
She said then, 'I xkisah...But remember wut the effect u gonna get'...

Gosh, sampaikan begitu sekali aku fikir...But I really xenjoy myself...Lame sangat...

S asked me,' Shima, ko g clubbing'...
Me answered, No,why???
Then,'Seyes???But nape???
Me kata lg, 'Dunno not interested maybe'..
S continued,'Hei,juz go...Enjoy urself & juz drink coke la...;)
Me looked at her & says, 'Of course,babe!!!

Okies, Im not saying tat my life lame sbb I x pergi clubbing...;XD...It juz aku xbuat apa yang aku nak buat...Instead of satisfying my need I satisfying other's...Sum people may not understand what Im goin trou & doubt what the hassle I bring up the issue at my final year study...Yeah,I juz realized it...All this while I tot I really want what Im doing currently...& being in the comfort zone of UNITEN make me lalai & leka...A wake up call juz rang & I knoe tat's sumthing wrong...

Im not blaming any1 or complaining life...But, this is wut inside my mind & heart...I juz need to channel it...

I guess I shud finish up wut've started & get a job...Then, up to me then on wut Im gonna do next...Joining MERCY, go for photography course, clubbing, scuba diving, abroad trip & etc...Suka hati aku la...As RM66k study loan at stake, I haf to finish up my study...

Aku juz harap masih ada kegembiraan di dalam hidup aku walaupun sedikit...

Signing out...;s